Hi there... I just got home from the last party of this semester. Colorland. Schumacer, Marlene, Julianne and I was at the preparty and ate first class food. I've missed Julianne. Hope Camilla.. No. Schumacher! Had a good time tonight.
Note to myself: stop drinking. You love dancing but going out is just not your thing, okay?
I'm going to Buenos Aires in two days and I hope to get some peace. Can't wait to attend those Tango classes!
Had Diep and my brother + two of his friends here visiting me last weekend. So much fun! Me and my brother are closer than ever. Daniel, his friend, told my brother he had beatiful lips.. God. And the other friend, Sebastian, has kept a lot of things from 6th grade! including the calander I draw the front page of and a birthday message my brother sent almost 10 years ago.
It's important to keep things that reminds you of the good times I guess.
experience
tirsdag 20. mars 2012
onsdag 14. mars 2012
Uken12
Marlene, my roomate, and I went to a pre party where I basically talked with a guy named Andreas about childhood memories (Pokemon, HIMYM and such). At the point we were in the tent people went bananas and danced while pushing others. But as most people around me I was in a good mood and didn't pay much attention to it. Had a great time!
I met Marius that night and couldn't remember where we had met, but I finally got to it. When I started at NHH I went on an audition for all sports (allidrett) and turned out to be the only girl.. Since he had a Vietnamese girlfriend we spent a lot of time talking about the Vietnamese culture and such. "nuoc mam!" (fish sauce) and "chuc mung nam moi" (happy new year) he kept saying.
Another person I was talking to that night told us how she had forgotten about a girl several times and the girl had said to her "people always forget about me"... I need to start putting a bigger effort in remembering people i meet! It makes them feel important and it would probably make me look pretty smart as well = win win situtation. Hehe.
(PS: I've heard that it's a good thing to repeat a guy's name if you're interested in him)
søndag 11. mars 2012
Project happiness
So I'm reading a book called "the happiness project" by Gretchen Rubin and I've started on my very own happiness project. Before I tell you more about that I'll just quickly give a recap on my past weeks.
A weekend in Krakow, 02.03.2012-04.03.2012:
Check: http://www.cracow-life.com/info/info.php
I was home the day before and arrived pretty late, but I ate dinner with my mom while talking with my sister about the trip before we went to bed.
NB! By mistake I had given the wrong time for when the bus was in Moss an my parents had to wait for about an hour. I was so mad at myself. Learning point (LP): don't rush when you're texting people to inform them about DDL, pick-up times and etc! Easily done and will make your life much harder.
Friday:
Morning: went for a run to the center of Moss with mom. Lovely weather! Had dinner with the family before we went to the airport.
PS: I was worried that Ryanair wouldn't let us go on board because I had only written "Anita Bui and Linda Bui" as our names which didn't match our passports completely (full name: Minh Chau Anita Thi Bui and Linda Minh Trang Bui). I had tried to change the names online before check in, but then we had to pay about 2000 kroners!!! Can you believe that?! So I didn't... Thank god it was alright.
Talks on the plane: we wan't to learn Chinese. Benjamin Button. Krakow!
When we arrived at the airport we easily found our way to the city center by the free airport bus and then by the train (10 PLN per ticket). Don't take the cab! 20 minutes, or less, later we were there at Greg and Toms hostel. Tuns of diplomas stated that this was one of the worlds greatest hostels, if not the best, ahn receptionists gave us a warm welcome followed by shots during the tour around the house. They recommended us "U Babci Maliny: "Grandma's kitchen second location" which turned out to be one of the best restaurant I've been to!
Take a look at the picture and let it speak for itself. The piano man was very skilled and the food was delicious and quite cheap. Conclusion; a must if you're in Krakow!
We went to the market place and ended up lost on our way back. It took us about 1 hour, but on the brighter side we burned those calories away!
Saturday - salt mines here we come!
After the various and surprisingly good breakfast we were picked up at 09.20 by a guy through the company we had booked the tour at. It costed us 80 PLN each and after being in Krakow for one night we realized it was a tourist price. They ripped us off! It was a price we had agreed through mail a week before we came and nothing much to do with that. Tip: take the bus (didn't check it out, but it has to be one going there)!
The mine was curved from the 1300th century until now and it's still producing salt. We walked for 2,5 hours and saw 1 %. The funny guide claimed that it would take us 6 months to go through it all. "you can lick on the walls to try the salt if you want, but be aware that over a 1000 people probably have done it before you." HAHa. She had a lot of funny comments that made the trip even better!
The mine was amazing and you have to be there to see it yourself to know it.
The plan was also to have time for Go kart (http://www.crazystag.com/enquire-thankyou/krakow/
crazystag@gmail.com) but we went to the market and around the city in the sunny weather instead. Next: all you can eat, drink and play for 45 PLN per person! We ate, drank and went to this club near the hostel. Met a lot of people, some nice and others were just.. old, and had a lot of fun!
Sunday - last day! :-(
Tour with crazy guides was on the agenda this morning. We checked out at 10 and the guide was there to pick us up around then. He took us to Nowa Huta, a communist part of Krakow which was Stalins gift to the city. Check: http://www.crazyguides.com/krakow_tours/communism_tour_of_nowa_huta_district. We wen't to this communist restaurant, got some drinks, and he told us about the history of the town. After that we got to take that communist car out for a ride! My sister almost stopped the engine several times, but managed to keep it alive even though she has only had one driving lesson at the driver's school. He also drove us to see other buildings and parts of Krakow that he had told us about in the beginning. All in all it was a great tour and we strongly recommend it!
Dinner and shopping was next and my favourite store was Pull and Bear! To bad we don't have it here in Norway. The meal was very good too and we left Krakow with a promise to return!
Things I've been busy with: AIESEC-promtion: 10 interested in GIP and 4 has signed the contract for GCDP! We had a lot of fun with fortune cookies (examples: "discover love in China!" and "Hakuna Matata"), Red cross meetings: had infomeeting and dinner with the group of leaders, and I've been to Tone's birthday (met people outside NHH for once. Hehe) and during promotion I had a lecture bash which went very well!
My mom visited me on the 8 of March - 10th: she arrived with 23 kiloes of luggage which I had to drag up that monster of a hill we have to get to our appartment (took us 40 minutes!). We saw the Ukerevyen, ate great meals, went to her friends house and to the pool. I had such a great time with her. Finally some one and one time with my mom and just what I needed. The last morning I also joined my moms regular morning work out. HAHA, it was hilarious and a good workout as well.
After dropping my mom off the airport it was time for the AIESEC promotion celebration! I had prepared a speech and the evening was filled with speeched! Ladies speech, the guy speech, welcoming speech, OGX speech and a OGX poem. After tapas it was time to enter a bar and we went to Kaos! They tried to make me drink, but I only ended up having to glasses of whine. My plan was to study the next morning, so I wouldn't allow myself to cut loose.
Result: didn't sleep until 5 O'clock the next morning since Øyvind and I slept at Ingrid's house. Love was the topic that night and I realized that I do not want a man with a stomach! Oh... Anita.
So about that Project of happiness. I'm going to watch a Ted movie now, but get back to it soon :-)
PS: watch this video about Kony http://vimeo.com/37119711
A weekend in Krakow, 02.03.2012-04.03.2012:
Check: http://www.cracow-life.com/info/info.php
I was home the day before and arrived pretty late, but I ate dinner with my mom while talking with my sister about the trip before we went to bed.
NB! By mistake I had given the wrong time for when the bus was in Moss an my parents had to wait for about an hour. I was so mad at myself. Learning point (LP): don't rush when you're texting people to inform them about DDL, pick-up times and etc! Easily done and will make your life much harder.
Friday:
Morning: went for a run to the center of Moss with mom. Lovely weather! Had dinner with the family before we went to the airport.
PS: I was worried that Ryanair wouldn't let us go on board because I had only written "Anita Bui and Linda Bui" as our names which didn't match our passports completely (full name: Minh Chau Anita Thi Bui and Linda Minh Trang Bui). I had tried to change the names online before check in, but then we had to pay about 2000 kroners!!! Can you believe that?! So I didn't... Thank god it was alright.
Talks on the plane: we wan't to learn Chinese. Benjamin Button. Krakow!
Take a look at the picture and let it speak for itself. The piano man was very skilled and the food was delicious and quite cheap. Conclusion; a must if you're in Krakow!
We went to the market place and ended up lost on our way back. It took us about 1 hour, but on the brighter side we burned those calories away!
Saturday - salt mines here we come!
The mine was curved from the 1300th century until now and it's still producing salt. We walked for 2,5 hours and saw 1 %. The funny guide claimed that it would take us 6 months to go through it all. "you can lick on the walls to try the salt if you want, but be aware that over a 1000 people probably have done it before you." HAHa. She had a lot of funny comments that made the trip even better!The mine was amazing and you have to be there to see it yourself to know it.
The plan was also to have time for Go kart (http://www.crazystag.com/enquire-thankyou/krakow/
crazystag@gmail.com) but we went to the market and around the city in the sunny weather instead. Next: all you can eat, drink and play for 45 PLN per person! We ate, drank and went to this club near the hostel. Met a lot of people, some nice and others were just.. old, and had a lot of fun!
Sunday - last day! :-(
Tour with crazy guides was on the agenda this morning. We checked out at 10 and the guide was there to pick us up around then. He took us to Nowa Huta, a communist part of Krakow which was Stalins gift to the city. Check: http://www.crazyguides.com/krakow_tours/communism_tour_of_nowa_huta_district. We wen't to this communist restaurant, got some drinks, and he told us about the history of the town. After that we got to take that communist car out for a ride! My sister almost stopped the engine several times, but managed to keep it alive even though she has only had one driving lesson at the driver's school. He also drove us to see other buildings and parts of Krakow that he had told us about in the beginning. All in all it was a great tour and we strongly recommend it!
Things I've been busy with: AIESEC-promtion: 10 interested in GIP and 4 has signed the contract for GCDP! We had a lot of fun with fortune cookies (examples: "discover love in China!" and "Hakuna Matata"), Red cross meetings: had infomeeting and dinner with the group of leaders, and I've been to Tone's birthday (met people outside NHH for once. Hehe) and during promotion I had a lecture bash which went very well!
My mom visited me on the 8 of March - 10th: she arrived with 23 kiloes of luggage which I had to drag up that monster of a hill we have to get to our appartment (took us 40 minutes!). We saw the Ukerevyen, ate great meals, went to her friends house and to the pool. I had such a great time with her. Finally some one and one time with my mom and just what I needed. The last morning I also joined my moms regular morning work out. HAHA, it was hilarious and a good workout as well.
After dropping my mom off the airport it was time for the AIESEC promotion celebration! I had prepared a speech and the evening was filled with speeched! Ladies speech, the guy speech, welcoming speech, OGX speech and a OGX poem. After tapas it was time to enter a bar and we went to Kaos! They tried to make me drink, but I only ended up having to glasses of whine. My plan was to study the next morning, so I wouldn't allow myself to cut loose.
Result: didn't sleep until 5 O'clock the next morning since Øyvind and I slept at Ingrid's house. Love was the topic that night and I realized that I do not want a man with a stomach! Oh... Anita.
So about that Project of happiness. I'm going to watch a Ted movie now, but get back to it soon :-)
PS: watch this video about Kony http://vimeo.com/37119711
søndag 5. februar 2012
What doesn't kill you
Damn right!
Next: Red cross meeting for the year with pizza followed by skype meeting with Chen and Diep! What a great Sunday :-)
Next: Red cross meeting for the year with pizza followed by skype meeting with Chen and Diep! What a great Sunday :-)
tirsdag 31. januar 2012
Personaly types!
ESFJ
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ESFJs are warm-hearted individuals who highly value their close personal relationships. They are very service-oriented, and their own happiness is closely tied into the happiness and comfort of those around them. They are valued for their genuine warm and caring natures, and their special ability to bring out the best in others. They usually do not handle conflict well, and may tend to be very controlling or manipulative. Relationships are central to their lives, and they put forth a great amount of energy into developing and maintaining their close interpersonal relationships. They expect the same from others.
ESFJ Strengths
- Put forth a lot of effort to fulfill their duties and obligations
- Warm, friendly and affirming by nature
- Service-oriented, they want to please others
- Take their commitments very seriously, and seek lifelong relationships
- Responsible and practical, they can be counted to take care of day-to-day necessities
- Generally upbeat and popular, people are drawn towards them
- Generally very good money managers
- Traditionally minded and family-oriented, they will make family celebrations and traditions special events
ESFJ Weaknesses
- Generally uncomfortable with change, and moving into new territories
- Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism
- Need a lot of positive affirmation to feel good about themselves
- May be overly status-conscious, and interested in how others see them
- Have very difficult time accepting the end of a relationship, and are likely to take the blame for the failure onto their own shoulders
- Have difficulty accepting negative things about people close to them
- Don't pay enough attention to their own needs, and may be self-sacrificing
- May tend to use guilt manipulation as a way to get what they want
ESFJs in Love
ESFJs are warmly caring people who give their intimate relationships a lot of special care and attention. They're usually traditional and take their commitments very seriously. Once the ESFJ has said "I do", you can bet that they will put forth every effort to fulfill their obligations to the relationship.ESFJs want to be appreciated for who they are, and what they give to others. This need of theirs is sometimes intensified to the point where they are very emotionally needy, and constantly "go fishing" for affirmation if it is not freely given. ESFJs typically cannot stand conflict or criticism. They take any sort of criticism as a general indictment of their character. This is a potential pitfall for ESFJs to be aware of. In the face of negative feedback, or the absence of positive affirmation, ESFJ may become very depressed and down on themselves. Appreciation is the greatest gift that their mates can give them.
ESFJs have a tendency to be very conscious of social status and "what other people think". They should take care not to let this interfere with their close relationships.
Romantically, ESFJs are warm and loving, and welcome intimacy as an opportunity to express their affections, and receive their partners gifts of love. Many ESFJs have a tendency to be highly scheduled and traditional in their romantic habits, but this is almost always overcome by increasing their education and awareness of options. ESFJs are very service-oriented and will place a lot of importance on making their partners happy.
Being highly practical, the ESFJ is excellent in matters regarding home management. They're likely to be very responsible about taking care of day-to-day needs, and to be careful and cautious about money matters. They are interested in security and peaceful living, and are willing and able to do their part towards acheiving these goals for themselves, their mates, and their families.
Most ESFJs have a strong need to "belong" - whether it be to institutions or traditions, or family units. This need usually causes them to be quite social creatures, who enjoy attending parties, as well as throwing their own. They're likely to strongly desire that their mates share in their social experiences.
Damn! Pretty much true! Think I need to focus on some of the weaknesses mentioned:
Indeed, but the last part doesn't
I do? Will pay attention to that.
What a cool test!
fredag 27. januar 2012
Anita Time
Hello there. So this is one of the few Fridays I've been able to spend alone. It's almost scary how little time I spend alone these days (not taking in account the time I spend studying). I made myself a great pasta dish today! I made quite a lot but it was so surprisingly good so I ate up the whole thing. After watching TV and knitting I took a hot shower. I couldn't sleep last night and I woke up in the middle of an AIESEC reflection: "we should make the google docs sustainable for the next VPs!". It hit me once again how AIESEC have had and still are having such a huge impact on me and my life. It has shaped me as a person.
I also thought of my goals for this year. So far, not telling anyone, has worked!!! I'm making progress. And just a quick update: the volleyball practises have started again and it was so much fun playing with both the old and new members! Recruitment in AIESEC at our school was a kick ass start of the semester: at the conference in Oslo I finally got to start planning and settle some expectations for the members, the info meeting turned out very good and I felt we were quite visible during this promotion period with the blue man and all. I met Doris at a GEP-lecture yesterday so we're going climbing together! Aaaand this Monday enough people signed up for the Buenos Aires trip. Woop woop!!! 10-12 days in the sun going to museums, going out to dinner and watching football games live? Ah, life is good. I've also surprised myself by being sporty: I tried pilates the other day (hard core training!) and done Zumba twice and I went to the swimming pool last night (managed to forget soap! stupid la..) Okay, now I'm just listing up things, but I have to mention that I've put the scratch map in my room and scrapped all of the countries I've been to! I didn't scrap away the whole US since I've only been to Seattle.
Which leads me to the next topic and something that has been on my mind since I left Seattle; Adrian.
I've laughed, cried, got angry and gone through this roller coaster of emotions. It was at its worst when I saw him available on g-chat on Monday. We were just told that we're going to Argentina. I told him, and this is the first time we talked since he sent med that e-mail.
A wave of anger came over me. I tried to fight the tears, but lost. I'm siting here on the bridge of crying again, but I won't allow it anymore. This experience made me realize that some things are just not possible. No matter how much I want for us to be in a normal relationship, I know it's just not possible. I have to accept the situation and it's a good learning point I'll take with me... There are some things I simply can't control and impact. I'm still in the process of accepting the situation but I know I'll get there. I will always remember what we had but I just need to decide to let go at some point.
All in all, you should be proud of yourself, Anita! Giving 110% of yourself and truly living in the moment knowing that it was in the short run. I really love travelling and get to know new people. Seeing his life and being a part of it was amazing and I could barely grasp it all- too much excitement! Another thing I really loved was that I could truly relax with him. And just going out to dinner almost every day was like being in heaven! I remember our first night together when he told me that he didn't know what to do. "I've been thinking about this day for such a long time now, that now that you're here I don't know what to do". Ditto. I've never been so dependent on a guy before and I liked being taking cared of, but not having "my own space" and my friends and life there was a challenge. When we said goodbye at the airport it was so surreal. "this is not really happening!!!". "You just came". We didn't talk much... I didn't want to say goodbye. We kissed and I stood in line. I looked back seeing him for maybe the very last time, because the next time I turned around he was gone. I must have looked so funny standing there with my bag crying while trying to cover them up with a smile.
I feel lost. I am okay, but... Just kind of lost. What is my passion? What do you want to leave behind? Do I believe in love? How small am I really? Thinking about the universe make me dizzy so I'll stop. And do I really study at NHH for my own sake or for my parents' sake? It's kind of hard separating these kind of things.
I'll stop being all Socrates and all that but the conclusion is: I need to start defining who I am and the person I want to be.
Okay, scratch the questions.. What I mean is that I feel this emptiness inside of me that my mind is trying to fill: either with questions, food or other tasks. I really miss that idiot! AAAHHHHHHHHHH.æsføjg.. Can't stop listening to his songs either. And everything keep reminding me of him. My keyboard next to reminds me of him sitting by the piano playing. "Someone like you" is on the radio from time to time and his voice is on repeat.
However, I'm grateful for having such a supportive family and friends. I met Thea over a cup of coffee in Oslo, Dinh at the train station to Oslo and Vymi, Diep and my mom has talked with me about it while several close friends have checked up on me. I should be happy and will be back on track soon.
Pretend that you are, and you'll start believe it.
"Fake it until you make it, right?"
I really needed this talk with myself! So.. Thanks, Anita :-)
Good night!
" Difficult times are miracles
I also thought of my goals for this year. So far, not telling anyone, has worked!!! I'm making progress. And just a quick update: the volleyball practises have started again and it was so much fun playing with both the old and new members! Recruitment in AIESEC at our school was a kick ass start of the semester: at the conference in Oslo I finally got to start planning and settle some expectations for the members, the info meeting turned out very good and I felt we were quite visible during this promotion period with the blue man and all. I met Doris at a GEP-lecture yesterday so we're going climbing together! Aaaand this Monday enough people signed up for the Buenos Aires trip. Woop woop!!! 10-12 days in the sun going to museums, going out to dinner and watching football games live? Ah, life is good. I've also surprised myself by being sporty: I tried pilates the other day (hard core training!) and done Zumba twice and I went to the swimming pool last night (managed to forget soap! stupid la..) Okay, now I'm just listing up things, but I have to mention that I've put the scratch map in my room and scrapped all of the countries I've been to! I didn't scrap away the whole US since I've only been to Seattle.
Which leads me to the next topic and something that has been on my mind since I left Seattle; Adrian.
I've laughed, cried, got angry and gone through this roller coaster of emotions. It was at its worst when I saw him available on g-chat on Monday. We were just told that we're going to Argentina. I told him, and this is the first time we talked since he sent med that e-mail.
All in all, you should be proud of yourself, Anita! Giving 110% of yourself and truly living in the moment knowing that it was in the short run. I really love travelling and get to know new people. Seeing his life and being a part of it was amazing and I could barely grasp it all- too much excitement! Another thing I really loved was that I could truly relax with him. And just going out to dinner almost every day was like being in heaven! I remember our first night together when he told me that he didn't know what to do. "I've been thinking about this day for such a long time now, that now that you're here I don't know what to do". Ditto. I've never been so dependent on a guy before and I liked being taking cared of, but not having "my own space" and my friends and life there was a challenge. When we said goodbye at the airport it was so surreal. "this is not really happening!!!". "You just came". We didn't talk much... I didn't want to say goodbye. We kissed and I stood in line. I looked back seeing him for maybe the very last time, because the next time I turned around he was gone. I must have looked so funny standing there with my bag crying while trying to cover them up with a smile.
I feel lost. I am okay, but... Just kind of lost. What is my passion? What do you want to leave behind? Do I believe in love? How small am I really? Thinking about the universe make me dizzy so I'll stop. And do I really study at NHH for my own sake or for my parents' sake? It's kind of hard separating these kind of things.
I'll stop being all Socrates and all that but the conclusion is: I need to start defining who I am and the person I want to be.
Okay, scratch the questions.. What I mean is that I feel this emptiness inside of me that my mind is trying to fill: either with questions, food or other tasks. I really miss that idiot! AAAHHHHHHHHHH.æsføjg.. Can't stop listening to his songs either. And everything keep reminding me of him. My keyboard next to reminds me of him sitting by the piano playing. "Someone like you" is on the radio from time to time and his voice is on repeat.
However, I'm grateful for having such a supportive family and friends. I met Thea over a cup of coffee in Oslo, Dinh at the train station to Oslo and Vymi, Diep and my mom has talked with me about it while several close friends have checked up on me. I should be happy and will be back on track soon.
Pretend that you are, and you'll start believe it.
"Fake it until you make it, right?"
I really needed this talk with myself! So.. Thanks, Anita :-)
Good night!
" Difficult times are miracles
They make you stronger, and wiser. You have to lean to live past all the things that you can't change, and be happy. Happy with yourself, and happy with the wonderful gift of life that god blessed you with."
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mandag 9. januar 2012
Drunk off your love, Seattle 26.12.2011 - 08.01.2012
So.. I'm back in Norway! To sum it all up: these past two weeks has been amazing. I've eaten good food, been a proper tourist, met both Adrian's friends and family and got the chance to relax, write and read. Most importantly I've had time with Adrian. I got to be with him again and I've truly been happy with him even though we've had our though moments.Looking back at it I'm always filled with tears in my eyes. Still can't believe I'm back in Norway. Can't believe that we said goodbye... I wanted to get "the plan" smacked up and ready to be followed step by step, and I did... We agreed on "project closure". Right now I just can't take the steps. I don't want to...
When I got back he had written me this e-mail:
Ani,
So you're still on the plane right now and I just got back to my apartment. Today was hectic for me and felt like it went incredibly fast, I told myself that I would not cry today and I can almost say that I accomplished that task. Yet, when my dad dropped my off at the apartment tonight and I walked into my room, everything about these past two weeks suddenly rushed up onto me and I could not stop myself from crying. I hate crying and showing this side of me. For me, it shows a vulnerable side of me and I really don't like being vulnerable or showing too much emotion, you probably know that by now.
I'm glad that you came these past two weeks. You've taught me so many things these two weeks. I've learned alot about myself and my own character. I'm so grateful that a girl like you would think of me. You deserve an amazing guy. Again, I know that I have not been good at all in keeping you company and giving you what you wanted this trip. And I apologize. I just read your letter and you said something about me having already said goodbye. I don't really know what to say to that. Anita, you know that I care so much about you and the past six months all I could think about was you and the two weeks we had together. But when you came, I tried so hard to go back to our time in China but I just couldn't. My heart wouldn't allow myself to fully commit knowing that I would have to say goodbye to you and I think that's why you saw at times that I was so distant. I'm sorry that I couldn't give you what you wanted Ani, I really am. And I'm sorry that you felt so frustrated by me this trip. The last thing that i wanted you to feel was unwanted but you ended up feeling this way.I miss you a lot Anita, I might not show it but it kills me inside. The worst part of you coming here is that now I'm stuck with thoughts of you even though you aren't here. My room breathes of you and everything smells of you. When I sit down on the ground using my laptop, I see you sitting across from me on the bed. Even when I'm in the shower, I see your mango shower gel and I can't keep myself breaking down.
I hope this year goes well for you though and you'll have the time of your life in Chile. You know that you always have a special place in my heart. I don't say much but I hope you will never forget how much you mean to me. I will always, forever cherish you. Don't ever change, I love the Anita that I have in my heart.
Forever yours,
Adrian
Vymi was with me when I read it... It helped. 10 hours later I responded to his e-mail:
Dear dear Adrian
Thanks. I wish you all the best and take care of yourself. Don't be too lazy and wake up in time for your classes! :-P
You've made me stronger, Adrian. More independent and I know to cherish the good moments more because of you and you've reminded me to not take the little good things in life for granted. I definitely don't regret coming to Seattle to visit you. I promise that I will always remember the showers, dinners, talks and the good memories we've shared. Right now you are the love of my life, I'll be having a hard time letting go. I believe that you have to let go of something to make room for something else. I know this is the right thing to do. For you. For me. Both of us in the long run.. You never know what the future will bring, but I know it will be great Adrian. I want you to be happy. I can't give you that now... I can't make you happy right now... I also believe that time has nothing to do with moving on. If you happen to meet someone or get to know one of your lovely girlfriends better and like them, then go for it :-) I'm not saying that with a smile on my face. It will be hard standing on the side line watching but yeah... I can't tell you what to do and you're.. Not mine anymore...
You'll always be in my heart too Adrian. at the very bottom. I miss you like people in Bergen often miss the sun. I hope we'll meet again someday Adrian. I will still be the same old Anita. Just.. With more confidence and more money I guess. Hehe.
Have a nice day at school!
I'm home now. Felt dizzy and kind of sick, but after a dinner with family and a visit from Vymi I'm all good. Same here! I almost slept through the whole flight and watched two movies on the plane. I actually cried quite a lot on my way back... No surprise there huh?
Yeah, I know that side of you but give yourself a break Adrian. You're human too, even though you are my superman.
Same! These two weeks was just as great as the adventure in China to me and I couldn't ask for more. Back at you Adrian. You are so kind and original with a great taste when it comes to food and music. "Again, I know that I have not been good at all in keeping you company and giving you what you wanted this trip."
Damn! I forgot to slap you!!! I'll give you an electronic one right now. S-L-A-P! Because... I kind of realised that on new years eve that you weren't.. "There". I knew that I cared more about you than you did about me, but I decided that I wouldn't give less of me. I hope that there were never doubt about how much I care about you during these days. And I didn't feel unwanted okay. I just had a very hard time grasping that you wouldn't give your all because there wouldn't be "an us" in the future. No hard feelings. I totally understand, Adrian. And you exceeded my expectations in other ways. I didn't expect you to spend that much time with me and to be such a good guide taking me to all these places and I really enjoyed the nights together.
Yeah, I know that side of you but give yourself a break Adrian. You're human too, even though you are my superman.
Same! These two weeks was just as great as the adventure in China to me and I couldn't ask for more. Back at you Adrian. You are so kind and original with a great taste when it comes to food and music. "Again, I know that I have not been good at all in keeping you company and giving you what you wanted this trip."
Damn! I forgot to slap you!!! I'll give you an electronic one right now. S-L-A-P! Because... I kind of realised that on new years eve that you weren't.. "There". I knew that I cared more about you than you did about me, but I decided that I wouldn't give less of me. I hope that there were never doubt about how much I care about you during these days. And I didn't feel unwanted okay. I just had a very hard time grasping that you wouldn't give your all because there wouldn't be "an us" in the future. No hard feelings. I totally understand, Adrian. And you exceeded my expectations in other ways. I didn't expect you to spend that much time with me and to be such a good guide taking me to all these places and I really enjoyed the nights together.
I read your letters again. And as you wrote to me: it is depressing. Knowing that you're across the ocean feeling like this and not be able to do anything about it. I just want a hug from you. A kiss. I don't have the mango scrub around here, but I have the pictures. I have your gifts and the memories and it's on replay right now. I know that I'm soon going to let myself be super busy. It's my way of handling missing you.
Thanks. I wish you all the best and take care of yourself. Don't be too lazy and wake up in time for your classes! :-P
You've made me stronger, Adrian. More independent and I know to cherish the good moments more because of you and you've reminded me to not take the little good things in life for granted. I definitely don't regret coming to Seattle to visit you. I promise that I will always remember the showers, dinners, talks and the good memories we've shared. Right now you are the love of my life, I'll be having a hard time letting go. I believe that you have to let go of something to make room for something else. I know this is the right thing to do. For you. For me. Both of us in the long run.. You never know what the future will bring, but I know it will be great Adrian. I want you to be happy. I can't give you that now... I can't make you happy right now... I also believe that time has nothing to do with moving on. If you happen to meet someone or get to know one of your lovely girlfriends better and like them, then go for it :-) I'm not saying that with a smile on my face. It will be hard standing on the side line watching but yeah... I can't tell you what to do and you're.. Not mine anymore...
You'll always be in my heart too Adrian. at the very bottom. I miss you like people in Bergen often miss the sun. I hope we'll meet again someday Adrian. I will still be the same old Anita. Just.. With more confidence and more money I guess. Hehe.
Have a nice day at school!
Love,
your Ani
This is so stupid, Anita! I really just hate myself for caring so much about him. He stole your heart. Get it back will you? I'm sure the future Anita will look back at this with a smile.
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